WW - Day 253 Checking in...

Yes, I’m still doing this thing. And I have to say I’ve learned quite a lot in my absence from this journal.

In 24 weeks I lost 50 pounds. It took me another 9 weeks to lose the next 10 pounds. I’d take a couple pounds off, then put a little back on, then take a little off, then put some more on... very frustrating.

So, why is this?

The holidays were an obstacle. These were not freakish gorge-sessions, but disruptions to my daily pattern of life. And yes, I ate some holiday foods and didn’t give myself hell about it. It's the holidays. No need to take up a celery habit.

It has been bitterly cold this winter. I cannot walk outside in the dark with bitterly cold and/or black ice. I’ve been a weenie. And therefore, my body’s ability to burn off calories has dissipated somewhat. And you know what? I'm colder without my layer of fat. Plain and simple. And I couldn't afford the gym membership, so I didn't work out much.

For awhile there, I slacked off on dutifully recording my every bite. That TRULY makes a difference. I don’t care what anyone says.

I’m still obsessed with food. And this has been an interesting discovery. I realized that I am on the prowl at all times for little snacky things. Like an addict. And when I would give in, it would be with “legal” or “smart” choices (for the most part). But I don't like this feeling. It's not good enough to make the right choice -- I wanted the little food chatter to stop. I have done so well – made so much progress – that I was worried my low-hum of food obsession would give in to a full-blown binge with no turning back.

I know how to be good.
I know what I should eat.
I know that I should get exercise.
But I couldn’t trust my head to be in the program.

So, I got hypnotized. (!!!)

I found this woman – actually I had heard of her about a year ago – who periodically visits and does seminars out at St. Joe on weight-loss and quitting smoking. Her name is Rena Greenberg. I decided to give it a try.

I plunked down $69.95 for a 2-hour seminar. I went last Saturday afternoon. I have been doing the follow-up “reinforcement” cd every day (sometimes twice a day). And I’ve noticed a change. Maybe ever so slight. My choices seem to be better. My constant obsession has been kicked to the curb.

I’m predicting that tomorrow’s weigh-in will be revealing.