WW - Day 19

BLASTED BIRTHDAY CAKE!

It wasn't even a sort of "celebration" with people gathered around yesterday -- it just landed on the counter at work. It came in a box from a grocery store! It wasn't even homemade! It didn't take me even a minute to weigh (hahaha) the pros and cons. I wanted a piece. And here's the kicker: when I tasted it, it didn't even TASTE that remarkable. And, of course, I finished every crumb!

Okay, so I get that a diet without some treats is a ridiculous thing because it is not real-life. Part of why I'm on this WW thing is because I'm allowed treats.

But ADELE! This was just not-so-special food. Let's say a crowd of people were celebrating together and someone made a special home-made YUMMY treat. Why not? Have a piece and truly enjoy the whole event. This didn't even have a knock-your-socks-off taste. I could have set it aside after a couple of bites, and yet, I felt compelled to see it through. You BAD GIRL!

FOOD: I kept my points in the check for birthday-cake day, so it's not that. I've been good -- keeping track of every point. But I must say, I'm not necessarily choosing fruits/veggies over other things. I need to keep that as my number one goal.

MOOD: It isn't enough that the points were monitored -- I'm disappointed that I succumbed to this old and tiresome behavior where I eat until I can't see the food in front of me. I'm in a sort of haze, not choosing, not tasting -- just eating. And I want to choose and taste. I want to connect enjoyment to it. And I sure don't want to feel like I was a bad girl afterward.

It will be interesting to see the scale on Saturday morning.