WW - Day 12

What a beautiful run of weather we are having. No, it isn't the best for the swimmers -- maybe a bit cool for that -- but an early morning riser gets the best walking weather these days! One successful part of this whole process has been walking every day. I think I've missed 2 days in the last couple of weeks. It really puts me in a good mood that the day has begun with something positive toward my health and spiritual well-being. Honestly though, I've had some small moments, after sitting upright in bed with my legs hanging over the edge, where I thought perhaps the best way to enjoy this wonderful weather would be lto catch another 45 minutes of sleep...

FOOD: Very good girl. Opting for healthier choices. Staying well within my target for each day -- yesterday I had 10 points left over. I also enjoyed a WW Fudgesicle last night for 1 point. Wow! That was pretty darned yummy! But I'm not pining for treats and those bars have been untouched in my freezer for about a week now.

MOOD: Good, but still anxious about Saturday's weigh-in. And I am constantly dreaming of waking up to find my clothes hanging off my body (!). This will all take time. I'm so frustrated that I have wasted more than a quarter of my life in this state. I want to put it behind me forever -- and I've shed 55 pounds before and said "forever" but it didn't stick.
- I want to stop obsessing about my enormous ass and start doing things.
- I don't want to fold gigantic laundry anymore.
- I don't want to be taken off guard when I catch my own reflection, or worse: when I see a photograph of myself.
- I want my knees to work.
- I want my ankles to be strong.
- I want to be able to breathe after 3 or 4 flights of stairs.
- I want to see my kid's kids, and maybe even their kids!
- I want to knock em dead at a class reunion... or a family reunion!
These are the things that propell me forward. This is what makes me put those feet on the floor instead of swinging them back up on the bed for another dream-cycle.

This thing has just got to work.
I'm trying so hard to make it happen.
Focus on the future, visualize success.
Anything you do for 21 days becomes a habit.
I'm almost half-way to habit...