Day 7 - wednesday is hump day!

FOOD - Yesterday afternoon I had a lunch of gumbo, two string cheese sticks and a coffee yogurt. My rescue dessert for staff lunch was a store-bought apple pie, and I had a slice of that. I had a nutrigrain bar in the afternoon. Went home and made soup and cheese quesadillas for supper. The soup was a progresso southwest chicken, with corn, beans, and a can of diced tomatos added. I had ONE Saunders chocolate peanut cluster as a "dessert" afterwards -- but that was it for the rest of the evening! This morning I ate the rest of the box of Total Honey Clusters (not quite a bowl's worth) and had a couple of cups of coffee.

MOOD - I feel better. I feel like I'm losing weight, although I doubt I actually am. It's just a general positive feeling that I am taking better care of myself. I've mentioned this to Wendy: this blog thing is really helping me. Thinking that I have to account for everything makes me second-guess my choices ("What would Wendy and Helen think?" or, "Won't they be proud of me!") So, regardless of whether or not you are analyzing my choices -- MY perception is that you will, therefore I behave. If I abstain from a late night binge I can joyfully look forward to reporting it to you in the morning. The next big step for me personally will be to make sure my own acceptance of my celebrations and failures is enough to propell me toward success. If, when I am not sharing every morsel of my diet with you, I can still make good choices, I will truly have gained a new skill. It's much easier to be good when I know people are watching...when the time comes that you aren't watching, will the fact that I MYSELF ALONE am watching be enough? Can I love myself enough to want it for myself?